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Doctor appt today!

today at 3:45pm I will go see Dr. John Foland. He might not have any more information for me than what My husband has already told me ....but I just want to check. Dr. Foland is an INCREDIBLE marathoner himself so he understands running and the way it effects the body so hopefully he has good news for me.

I have been trying to think of all the positives from this very crappy situation:

1. Perhaps this is happening to help me realize my dependence on God and spend more time with him. I have been having a really hard time the last few months b/c of various things in my life and I have drawn away from Him which has made me sad. I spent some time reading scriptures on the eliptical the other day which I can't do on the treadmill so that was a plus.

2. I never have time to fit in all my running miles AND strength training...so perhaps this is a time to gain muscles and become stronger overall....not just in my legs.

okay...sadly...that's all I can come up with right now....
however, I could give you an endless list on why this ISN'T cool.

for starters...I just dropped my daughters off at my friends for her preschool and COULD go out and enjoy the beautiful day with a run....but I can't. I am stuck inside blogging instead. My legs are too sore to do the eliptical b/c I decided to do too many leg presses and squats with 15lb weights yesterday. what an idiot.

I feel myself losing motivation. It has been 24 days since I could run:( I feel out of shape, gross, unmotivated...un-athletic and just plain stupid. Everything I have worked at is going out the window...I don't seem to care about what I'm eating, how much sleep I'm getting....my routine has just gone to crap. I sleep in too late..then don't want to get out of bed.
at this point...I feel like i'm looking at AT LEAST another 4wks (MINIMUM) as my leg still hurts a tonne when I try to run, before I can run and by that point, it will be like starting over. I worked so hard the last 8 mos to start over. so lame!

oh well.....I am trying NOT to think about it too much during the day or else I end up feeling like this and THIS is not going to get me anywhere is it?

I will just keep plugging along and see where this road takes me......

and I will probably feel quite the opposite of everything I just wrote by tomorrow...My emotions seem to change hourly. ...that's just an extra little bonus that comes along with this injury package;o)