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Thursday, February 9, 2012

Being flexible with our goals and with ourselves....Keeping a healthy perspective

What a stark contrast my mindset is today from one year ago. 

A year ago, I had tunnel vision. I was borderline obsessed with running and had a hard time seeing anything outside my goals. NO flexibility. I wanted what I wanted and I wasn't willing to slow down or stop til I got it.  I didn't listen to my body, I listened to a training plan. I did what my coach told me no matter how tired, emotional or over worked I was. I showed up at my marathon after barely recovering from the flu, and with a stress fracture. When everything fell apart, I was a Hot Mess! instead of rejoicing in 3:35 for a first marathon despite all those set backs, I sat down and cried feeling like an utter failure.


Today, I sit here facing more adversity but feeling completely in control of my emotions and my outlook.
I have uncontrollably sore quads, and not sure why. Perhaps from the drugs this past week?
it doesn't really make sense. I sat on my butt ...rather laid in bed for  2 days and when i tried to run again, it feels like I ran 3 marathons.
I said to Stephanie this morning, " It seems like every time I get on a roll, something stops me dead in my tracks. WHY?!". It is frustrating yes...but it is NOT the end of the world.

I have become  a lot more flexible with My goals and with myself. 
I can only do what I can do.

So, I may not be able to race that 5K on Sunday. Disappointing? yes. but not the end of the world. 

I may have missed both my big workouts this week: 
my 15 progression and 10x 2 min hills....
frustrating? yes. but not the end of the world. 

I am glad that I can face these challenges without having an anxiety attack. I am  a fighter. I never quit. I don't give up. I got out and ran 10.5 miles yesterday. every step hurt my quads. EVERY step. But it wasn't an "i'm gonna get injured if I keep running" hurt...it was  just a "my legs are so tired and dead" hurt. SO I  kept going. I pushed through. I told myself that I might feel like this during the marathon so use this as training on how to push through the fatigue.

I will continue to do EVERYTHING that I can do, 
whatever that may be and whatever I have to give come 
April 16th 
will just have to be enough. I am not going to lose sleep over it. 
It might be a 3:25 or it might be a 3:15 (God willing), but whatever it is, 
it will be ENOUGH. 

I am not going to let it distract me from my duties as a mother and wife.
I have YEARS to run still....and apparently my body likes to take mandatory breaks every 3 weeks during marathon training;) ....no really, I'm serious. lol we'll see what happens 3-4 wks from now:)

Running has been so good for my health...both physically and mentally. It has taught me a lot about myself, my strengths AND my weaknesses....and it feels good to know that I can surrender to the"stuff" that life throws my way and try to take it all in stride. 


I feel like my motto lately is "It's Not the End of the World". I mean really...there are bigger things in the world to worry about that me getting kidney stones and missing another 3 days of training....

IT IS WHAT IT IS:) 
(as my husband likes to say) 

I continue to embrace the Love and gratitude I feel to 
JUST BE ABLE TO RUN!

So, get out there, enjoy the feeling of the pavement under your feet...no matter how fast, slow or sore you are today:) It is a blessing to have legs to run!

Here's my 3 yr old mooshy smiling at all the people 
clapping for her as she crossed the finish line of her first race. 
See the JOY on her face? she didn't care how fast she ran 
it, she just felt GREAT about herself for DOING IT!
If we could all be like little children:)

11 comments:

  1. I just found your blog and I am in LOVE!! You are amazing and so beautiful. You have already inspired me. I am training for my first marathon that is next Sunday and I'm kinda embarrassed to admit it, but I spent my daughters whole nap time reading your posts. SO INSPIRING!! Good luck with your health!

    Sara

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  2. I love this post Nicole. You have a great head on your shoulders right now. I can't wait for you to run Boston.

    Tahsha

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  3. I REALLY needed this today! Hope you are feeling better!

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  4. Love the motto today! It may not be what you hoped for but we were out there doing it this morning :). Thanks for running with me :) Love ya!

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  5. We may not have been lightning fast but we were out there :). Life is about how we handle things when they are not perfect :). You are handling it beautifully! Love ya!

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  6. Love this post Nicole. You are such an inspiration and I love your positive attitude. I don't think missing your two workouts this week will be a huge deal. You are in such great shape and you are a very strong and talented runner. Your daughter is going to be just like you when she gets older. :-)

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  7. What a difference a year can make! It sounds like you have the right attitude and are learning more about the sport of running and yourself every day. I think every runner needs to reach a point when they can discern between the "I'm going to get injured if I keep this up" or "I'm just so tired and not feeling it today." I think I was the same way you were last year. Sometimes it takes something drastic to put us back in our place. My stress fracture was awful but I don't think I would be the runner today if I didn't go through that learning process.

    Anyway, I hope you are able to get back into your rhythm and stay healthy! :-)

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  8. Love this girl. You are in a good place Nicole and I love being part of your journey. Thanks for coming out to run with me tonight. It was so nice having that time with you. Love this pic of your sweet little girl! Gosh, she is cute!! Excited to be in Boston with you. xo

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  9. Yes Nicole. I absolutely think of you as a fighter...absolutely. I sure hope you're feeling better today. Setbacks ARE frustrating and we have a right to be frustrated about them. We work HARD and when something steps in the way of it, we sometimes need to mourn a little bit:) That being said, great outlook here and TRUE. Hope everything comes together with your body this week and your quads settle down and recover and you feel right back on track!

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  10. Yes, I completely get this and I am exactly the same way now.
    These few days off will only make you stronger in the long run. You will see:)

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  11. Nicole! what you gained was a huge mental break- reading this perspective I was like 'YES, YES, YES' and what I was thinking last week was "no, no, no" cause you have been doubting so much- so lets just say right now- no more of that other talk and keep on with this talk- I love it- you love it- it's going to work for you! Hey and call me a wise arse if you want- but if you really think you have a 3 week curse- I'd like to be the dork that says at week 2 weeks 3-5 days then you take your own break ;-) You take off 3 -4 days and beat that nasty kharma to the punch! haha! ok- I'm like that- but - no really - shiz happens to everyone all the time- we expect to be exempt but God thinks that running hard is just not enough of what is to be learned? Yeah- I think so - sometimes!

    Happy A-Day Next Week ♥

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