Reflections from Mexico! small improvements bring Big happiness:)
I've been in Mexico with my family for a few days now and staying unplugged...it's so nice to just put that phone away and leave it in my room every day....all day:)
It's late now and kids are coloring in our room, hubby is reading and i'm going to do a quick blog post:)
I heard a quote years ago that has always stuck with me. It was simple:
"Progress is Happiness" and another that is similar:
"Happiness is the consequence of good decisions"
Both of these have proven true for me throughout my life and again in recent months.
It's been over a week now since I increased my progesterone AND my Synthroid...as well as starting to wear my correct toes and metarsal lift that Dr. McClanahan gave me and i'm actually noticing quite a reduction in my pain in my leg....it's still there but noticeably better. For example I was really worried about the plane ride here... anytime I sit for even 20min my leg hurts....I was on the plane for 4.5hrs and it was barely there......
Since I've been here...the amout of times I have noticed it have been considerably less as well.
Not sure if the higher dose of Synthroid and progesterone are helping lower inflamation in my body or if the correct toes and metartasal lift and shoe lift in my shoe of my shorter leg are doing the trick but I'll take it! I'm remaining hopeful that things will keep getting better:)
As the strong feeling to run increased over the last few weeks, I finally felt at peace about it on Tuesdsay before we left for mexico.
I strapped on my shoes and headed out for a slow easy 1 mile run:)
3 days short of 7mos since I have been running...I can' believe it's been 7mos ad will probably be closer to a year before I'm really "running"...like more than a few miles a time, but that's okay.
It was okay....my foot did start to "feel" whatever it is that it feels...I can't say pain or hurt b/c it's more of a just a "hey, i'm still here" type of feeling..and my low back ached a bit, but it just felt so good to be trotting along. SLOWLY. I only wore a watch to make sure I didn't run more than one mile. It took me 9:21 and I could have cared less. I've learned that I would give up fast times in trade for just being able to run if that's what it came down to, but I know I will be get back to where I want to be. I'm determined and smart and have shown myself how patient this very impatient girl can be when something is important to me:)
I have gained a respect for myself this last few months as i've given up food.....all food. (okay, not ALL food, but pretty much). every delicious thing I could ever eat before is no longer an option for me and i've done it all b/c I am learning to love myself enough to make hard choices. before I would have just found excuses b/c my addiction to food was stronger than my knowledge that it was bad for me and hurting me.
Being at an all inclusive this week has been tough. watching my hubby and kids eat ALL kinds of deliciousness at every meal makes my mind squirm, but i've remained focussed. meat, veggies, fruit. I focuss on just fueling my body, eating GOOD foods until i'm full and then moving on. not dwelling in "I want that food!" mode:) Not gonna lie and say it's easy, b/c it's not but My health has become my number 1 priority. If I am not well, I can't take care of my family adn they are the most important thing to me in this whole world:)
I'm excited that after 7mos I am finally seeing a LITTLE improvement in my leg....keeping my thoughts focused and positive that it will continue:)!
Hope you are all well!!
cheers from Mexico! xx