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Saturday, August 24, 2013

3rd stress fracture. 3rd summer In a row

I am not even sure why I am coming on here to write. I am not sure what I think I need to hear or hope to hear in reply to any of this. The situation feels so helpless at times.
Since my femoral stress fracture last year, I was so cautious I didn't run a lot from August to December. Kept it under 30 miles a week and didnt get the courage up to train again til February.
I still only ran a max of 40 miles a week and none of my training was strenuous. Again, I tried to keep things very moderate so I could stay healthy!!

I noticed some mile aching in my foot the last few months and Steve said it we some tendinitis in my foot. It never bugged me when I ran but always ached after.
Eventually around July I noticed the muscles going up my outer lower leg wet getting tight. Then before I knew it, I had a stress fracture in my fibula. Same leg, same bone as my first stress fracture that I got at mile 22 of my first and only marathon in may of 2011
So here I am.
Heart more broken than ever. It's been 4 wks with no running.
I was half way through marathon training with my husband for a marathon on sept 28.
We were supposed to run together. His first and was hoping it would be my first healthy and injury free.
Now I am cheering and watching him train alone. The guy who doesn't even like to run.
I have been busy w weddings and getting ready to move so I've tried to avoid facing my feelings but its tough.
Especially this weekend watching everyone post their good to coast photos and watching my friends reaching new PRs. Infact I've been watching them make incredible strides the last two years and I am truly happy. But at the same time there is this ACHE in my heart. All I have ever wanted since I started running 3 yrs ago was to race and get fast and improve. I am beyond frustrated and hurting.
Running is a part of my soul and I am terrified that I will just NEVER be able to be the runner I WANT to be and that I know I CAN be.
I feel helpless.
I am not even looking forward to being able to run again in 4 wks bc it just means I am potentially closer to being injured all over again.  Why can't my body just work? What is wrong w me?!


7 comments:

  1. Nothing is wrong with you or your body.
    Talk with a coach. They can help you build up to avoid injury, get in the right cross training and everything else.

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  2. so frustrating :(

    I don't know if you would even be interested, but if you want to look at working with my coach, she has kept my injury proneness healthy (fingers crossed it stays that way) and running. If you do, let me know.

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  3. I sure wish I could give you a BIG hug tonight. I am so sorry and I feel your frustrations. I haven't had SFX, but seem to get a tissue problem 1 or 2 times a year that takes me out of my game for a month or so. ...this time MUCH longer. It must be hard to watch Steve and not be able to join him.
    Thanks so much for your comment tonight. I would love to chat with you. Email me and we make a time, Or I could call.

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  4. When I saw this on FB I was heart broken for you because I know what I went through with mine. I can't imagine going through with this three stinking summers in a row. Ughhhh. I'm not sure if you've ever followed "Caution Redhead Running." Her name is Morgan (from Michigan). Anyway, she is stress fracture prone but has done a lot of research in this area.

    I hope the next 4 weeks go by quickly and you are able to enjoy many of the positive things going on with your family in your new home. :-)

    Good luck to your husband with his first marathon too!

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  5. I think you and I share the same genes, maybe long lost sisters we didn't know we had? Anything that can go wrong, any injuries that could happen find me. Sometimes I feel that I am riding a roller coaster. I get frustrated and down, then get feisty and work hard to get strong and make things better, then feel like I am flying when I have a good run and think it is all behind me and then it strikes again and the cycle continues. I don't have a coach but have tried everything else, massage therapist, Physio, Doctor. Not sure anymore what to do. But I am working just as hard to train my mind to be strong, patient and positive. I have been given this body and these struggles because I can handle them. I haven't had many good runs in the past 3-4 months but I am thankful that I can run. Stay positive and know that you will get out what you put in.

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  6. So sorry to hear your battle with the stress fracture is back. Best advice I ever received when dealing with these types of setbacks - is when something in life is not working, focus on what is working in your life. By the way, there is nothing wrong with you. You are perfect as is and there is nothing to fix. You are AMAZING.

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  7. Ever heard of female athlete triad? Here's a link about it, scroll down a bit to get to the meat of the post: http://www.hungryrunnergirl.com/2012/06/female-athlete-triad.html

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