First day back:
1 mile. felt like death. a 9min pace felt extremely uncomfortable....this scared me .
day 2:
2 miles.
got out there..was runnin along and realized I was running 8:15-8:30 pace and wasn't dying...decided to just let my heart rate get up there...was craving a little bit of tempo action (which for me is not very fast right now).
first mile was 8:17....second mile.... 7:24!! it felt SO FRIGGIN amazing!!! I came home, sweaty, heart pounding. I was just so happy to know I COULD still run a 7:24 mile...but the fact that my heart was pounding as hard as it was and my legs were dead spoke loud and clear to me of how out of shape I am. to think 10wks ago I was doing 20 mile runs at that pace..and now 1 mile is a feat!:( but I am up for the challenge! I WILL climb my way back up and surpass where I was before. It's just the way I am. I don't mind a good healthy fight within myself:)
then today was :
day 3:
3 miles.
8:21 pace. Good run.felt nice to just be out there again at 6:30am....although I am so sleepy today now..my body isn't quite used to this yet:)
Thoughts:
I am the kind of person that needs a GOAL. A PLAN. A MOTIVATOR. So...this running just to run is sort of strange. It doesn't compel me to be smart about my eating....my brain is still partially in Vacation mode, but it will come. I hope the excitement I feel about getting up to run in the mornings lasts a while:)
Not sure if Iwll make that 2 mile race on Aug 13 but we'll see. it might be fun since it is ONLY 2 miles to just see how fast I can run by that point..i'm sure it won't be too fast...probably 7min pace but at least it will be a guaging point for me to see where I'm at progress wise.
I feel GRATEFUL for life...for my legs, for my lungs. Seriously...just so grateful.
The other stuff...the depression stuff I mentioned before is coming under control. IT was really quite scary there for a few days. I went to the doctor and she helped me out. Hopefully things continue to look up and the increasing endorphins every day do their job;)
thanks for all your support during my recovery......Love you girls!!
**Remember Stephanie @ Soggy Runner Girl who I spoke about in my last post....go check out her post on her amazing sub 1:28 half marathon last week here
Again, amazing job Stephanie!I was so blessed to have front row seats!