I REALLY hate that I am so off my game. I wanted to jump back into this with the same organization and enthusiasm as I had 2weeks ago but things are just off:(
I am already feeling exhausted and I haven't hardly done anything.
I have a LOT of emotional stress going on in my personal life this week and it's hard for me to find motivation or excitement or anything.
I keep trying to shake my head and get back in the game but it's tough.
Today is my first day of interval training. It should be week 3 for me...but it's week 1 and I don't feel prepared AT ALL to go do this. I have no energy, I am emotional and feeling discouraged.
it's frustrating that I was so on the ball 2 weeks ago, I had a plan and now I can't seem to get organized again. Whats up with that?
I am going to eat a big early lunch, then head out to the track and attempt to give it my all.
here's my workout:
3 mile warm up
2 mile fast (95% effort)
4x 800m sprints (90%)
2 miles fast (95% effort)
1 mile cool down
I find myself asking "am I ready to do this?"...I mean I know I can train for a marathon, but is NOW the right time? do I have too much on my plate?
my business takes A LOT of time and then 2 kids on top of that, a husband, a home. Am I being stupid? I wish my days consisted of just running and being a mom/wife:) that would be AWESOME.
anyway...hopefully all the stress I'm dumping here stays here and I can go get on with life today. I need to just shake this off and MOVE ON! Come on Nicole, pull it together!
I know this is a "downer" post but I am documenting everything in this process...the good days and the bad....hopefully there will be more good than bad in the end:):)
Happy Running everyone