Thursday, March 31, 2011
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
I just wanted to throw this out there....
I have a best friend. One of those once in a lifetime kind of best friends. We met when we were 11yrs old and though it wasn't love upon our first meeting, we quickly moved past that and were inseperable.
We spent most of our highschool years sharing EVERYTHING with each other. I think to this day, there are STILL things that ONLY SHE knows about me.
I feel VERY blessed to have such a friend.
About 8yrs ago though, life circumstances changed so that we didnt' talk as often, didn't see each other hardly ever. It was hard. I felt like I was losing her and sometimes I cried in silence over it. But when we DID talk, I knew there was still that connection. I prayed she would find happiness, it was one of the greatest desires of my heart.
I will let her tell you the rest. She is an aspiring writer and has recently started a blog. I am so addicted to it.
I feel so INSPIRED by her and all that she is doing to take her life back! I wish MORE WOMEN had the strength, courage and confidence that she does. she is just AMAZING.
the girl who i've known for 22yrs who is very private and NOT a risk taker at all is taking risks and living her life.
Luckily, she is only about 5 posts in so you can still catch up!!
I feel like all can be inspired by her journey in some way, so go show her some love:
be sure to start with these 2 posts:
Saturday, March 26, 2011
Janae, So THIS is what it feels like to feel like the Bomb.com??? LOL...
I was feeling a lot of anxiety about this 20 miler today. I was supposed to have 16, 18 and THEN 20 but b/c I lost 2 wks and was sick, I did 16 last weekend and 20 today.....
I even woke up 5 times last night worrying about it. silly me.
I stayed at one of my team mates house last night as we all headed out to Banks/Vernonia trail for the run. we were all doing diff things but it was nice to know were still together....sort of.
My fabulous coach road his bike and simulated Aid Stations for us every few miles. what a guy!
ALL WEEK, I thought this was an EASY run. THEN last night at team dinner, Joel tells me it's a "progression run".
'WHAT? YOU TOLD ME IT WAS EASY! " I exclaim.
"Well, you turn every long run into a progression run anyway" LOL
I had to laugh because it's SO true! I am incapable to running an easy pace for long periods.
1. I get bored
2. I end up thinking to myself "i wonder how fast I can run this"
3. I am ALWAYS in a hurry with everything Ido in my life. so it's inevitable. Been like that since I was a kid.
Anyway...we started the run and it was WET. Of course, it's Portland people.
I tried to keep up with Becky and Helen but they were running sub 8min pace for their "EASY" and I knew if I did that I'd never make it 20 miles.
I HAVE to do my first few miles at about 8:15-8:30 if I'm going to push it later.
Still...I wasn't really sure how I was going to execute this run...it was sort of mile by mile...just seeing how I felt knowing I had A LOT of miles to go still.
Joel was on his bike and said to me at one point "it's not about time today, just finish the 20 miles"....so I wasn't feeling pressured or anything..
BUT at mile 10,I looked at my watch and i was running 6:45 pace and felt amazing and that is when I decided I wanted to go under 2:30. My run last week was a 7:29 pace so I wanted to see if I could do that for 4 more miles.
It seemed a bit out of reach, considering I was DEAD at the end of my 16 last week but I am always forced into doing these things to myself by this voice inside I can’t seem to ignore! I have got to be the most competitive person with myself.
Anyway…everytime I got tired,I turned on Lady Gaga’s “born this way” ..I NEVER wear an IPOD but I am SO glad I listened to the prompting to bring it today. 20 mile is along way to run alone with nothing to listen to but the rain slapping you in the face and your feet pounding the pavementJ
The last few miles were HARD but I had a big smile on my face b/c I was kicking this run in the butt WAY better than I even imagined I could. This is only week 2 of running for me so Ididn’t expect much.
Anyway...I finished in under 2:30 with a pace of 7:26 the girls told me:) I'm curious to see my mile splits but I was wearing my coaches watch and he has it.
When I finished…DON’T LAUGH, I cried.
No really. I mean I CRIED! I cried b/c I was SO tired and I cried b/c I was just so happy that I ran that and that meant that I COULD maybe REALLY do a great sub 3:20 on this marathon.
GOALS are VERY important to me. I set them so I can see how far I can go. How hard I can push and b/c I want to know WHAT I’m MADE OF! I know that not everyone is like that and that people run just b/c they enjoy it, but I run because I want push harder and harder every time.
I birthed my 10lb 4oz baby girl naturally just b/c I wanted to experience natural labor. LOL, I know some people think I’m crazy…but it was WORTH IT! Best experience of my life.
And I know that running this 26.2 as hard as I can will be worth it too, for I get to find out how far I can stretch, what my limits are and to not be AFRAID to give it everything I got. I think it’s a lesson that can be applied to so much of our lives. The feeling after pushing through something you think you CAN’T is one of the most REWARDING feelings I have ever experienced in my life.
When I die, I want to know that I did hard things. I didn’t let the fear of failure stop me. I worked hard and then I went for it!
That makes me think…one of my favorite quotes:
“WORK as if everything depends on you.
PRAY as if everything depends on GOD”.
I think that’s my life’s mottoJ
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
Saturday, March 19, 2011
I had to get up at 5:30am for work. I had a wedding from 7-11am and then headed to beautiful Sauvie Island to meet Chuck for my run:) Weather forcasted rain all day....which is what we've had ALL week but it was SUNNY!! and WARM!! I mean REALLY warm.
I packed long sleeves and my winter tights so I was cooking after 4 miles and had to take my long sleeve shirt off and run in my sports bra! (yikes!).
I took my gels 2hrs before and then my amazing UCAN drink right before we ran.
if you have not tried the UCAN sports energy drink before long runs, you NEED to. simply amazing....and right now they are all 25% off for another week and half so TAKE ADVANTAGE!.
you want the SPORTS DRINK MIX, not the protein one. ....protein one is better for AFTER.
Anyway...Chuck (the lovely man running with me in my header photo) hasn't run much lately...
so he wasn't sure how he'd do 16 miles but he was such a trooper. Keep in mind this man ran a world class time for the 3,000m a few years ago. he is INCREDIBLE.
We started out and I planned to just run how I could. My coach told me that if I didn't feel I could do a progression run to just do a 16 easy run.
I agreed, but for some dumb reason I am FAR too competitive with myself and I felt like I had something to prove to myself today. I just wanted to know I still have it!! after these 11min miles this week I have been a little bit worried.
We started out and to be honest, we accidentally ran those first few miles way too fast...they were 8:04 and 7:51 for first 2 miles...but it was too late so I just kept going with it.
My fastest miles were mile 5, 10 and 16....wasn't a very well executed "progression" run b/c by mile 12 I was feeling DONE. But again..being the crazy obsessive women I am, I refused to quit or give in. None of my miles went over 7:45 after that and my last mile was 7:05.
Not as good as my 15 miler a month ago, BUT it was at the END of my cycle of training when I was peaking and this is at the beginning so I feel GREAT!!!!
all the way home I felt like I was going to throw up, but instead I came home, ate 2 grilled cheese sandwiches at the Grilled Cheese Grill , drank a PEPSI (my FAVORITE!!) and then had frozen yogurt at YOCREAM covered in Reeses Peanut Butter cups:):)
So...I feel pretty good and optimistic.
I did feel today like 16 was FAR:( and next saturday I have 20!!! I am thinking an 8:15 pace is a good goal for the 20miler:) and maybe a 3:25 is a bit more realistic for my marathon:)
Mile splits from todays run:
Mile 1: 8:04
Mile 2: 7:51
Mile 3: 7:38
Mile 4: 7:33
Mile 5: 7:14
Mile 6: 7:19
Mile 7: 7:26
Mile 8: 7:24
Mile 9: 7:21
Mile 10: 7:14
Mile 11: 7:23
Mile 12: 7:23
Mile 13: 7:37
Mile 14: 7:41
Mile 15: 7:38
Mile 16: 7:05
I was pretty consistent from Mile 5-mile 12, but you can see I struggled in miles 13,14 and 15...but pulled it together at the end:)
AND....this is my biggest week since I started training 6mos ago: 54 miles so YAY!!!
Thursday, March 17, 2011
Wednesday, March 16, 2011
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
worst track workout I've had since I started running 2yrs ago lol...and back then I was at ground zero.
What I'm saying is I couldn't complete any of the intervals and I couldn't hit ANY of the times....not even close actually.
I resolved that my body just isn't ready today. I still put in a lot of miles in the POURING rain.
no...really. I have never run in rain that hard...especially for 90min straight.
I tried to do the first 2 mile interval. My goal was 13min. 6:30 pace:
My first mile was 6:30 exactly andthen the next lap I just plunged to a much slower pace..by lap 6 I couldn't keep going.
I did a recovery lap and then tried to do my 800m intervals.
I normally do my 800's at 3:00-3:05. My first one was 3:10...not bad but then the 2nd attempt I stopped after 3/4 of a lap. grrrr...now I am getting frustrated I'm thinking I should just go home.
Luckily, I had a good friend Tanja who was there running her intervals.
she told me to keep going but to just slow down.
So I thought I'd give it a try.
I ran 2 more 800's at 3:32...which is a 7:04 pace..but that was ALL I could do today and I just have to accept it.
That's hard for me to swollow when I know I am supposed to be in week 3 of training and progressing quite nicely and i've taken such a HUGE step back, BUT I also remind myself:
1. I was really sick and JUST finished anti-biotics
2. I didn't run for almost 2.5wks
3. I am still getting better (glands are still swollen).
4. I have alot of extra personal things on my mind right now
SO....I am hopeful that next week I will be a bit better.
run the next 3 days VERY easy and slow, sleep lots and hope I can bust out a great 16mile progression run on saturday:):)
Sunday, March 13, 2011
Apparently they changed their time and I almost missed them:(:( but luckily just as I was leaving I saw them and jumped out of my car.
I thought they were only running 4 but turns out they were running 8...and at a much faster pace than I SHOULD have been running.
first run back.EASY run, should have been 8:30 pace...but everytime I looked at my garmin it said 7:30-7:45...I was thinking "oh crap, this is NOT what I'm supposed to be running after being sick and having 2 wks off:(" but I survived...thought my legs were SORE.
then yesterday morning we went to Leif Erickson...which is great but is rolling hills in a steady uphill climb for the first few miles..
I was trying to run it slow but could not believe how SORE my quads were by the time I hit 6 miles and turned around.....it was RIDICULOUS. it must just be that I haven't run b/c they were KILLING me!
anyway....when we were about 1 mile from the bottom, GUESS WHO I RAN BY???
SHALANE FLANAGAN and her couch...andthe other blonde girl who is in the article with her in this months Runners World.
I was too stupid to stay something but I should have yelled out "Hi Shalane!!! Look, I'm wearing your compression socks from the Runners World article!!" lol..do you think she would have thought I was a DORK??! ha ha...probably!!!
Anyway.... 12 miles done....8:20 pace...good easy run....
OH and then I went to bed last night at 6pm and slept 12 HOURS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! woohoo....
all geared up for this week!!!
Thursday, March 10, 2011
Tuesday, March 8, 2011
"i'm sick of this! I have tried to be patient! I have stayed off my feet, I have eaten well, I have been sleeping lots, I've been taking tonnes of vitamins and herbs you name it..and i'm STILL sick!! I am a super healthy person, there is NO reason for me to be this sick for this long! and I HAVE PMS! (this is where I started to cry and my husband started to laugh lol)..."
then I flopped down on the bed and cried like a baby. lol
in hindsight it's funny...but boy was I mad.
I sort of still am.
tomrrow is Wednesday. I won't be running yet. sigh.
16 days with only 2 days of running. I'm losing fitness and losing training time.
WHY? it's so annoying you know?
I like to be in control of my life so this is just killing me.
and I know I know I know...everyone keeps saying "try not to stress, it will only make it worse" but really I'm not so sure..b/c I kept my stress level in check for the first 4 days and I got worse each day...last night I got totally PISSED OFF and today I feel a marginal change in the right direction! LOL...so maybe my body is scared of me AND my temper and is actually going to smarten up;o)
anyway..... headed to the Doctor today. hoping for some anti-biotics.
my glands are REALLY swoleen in my neck and my throat is still sore. that is the symptom I've had for 6 days that isn't getting better.
I know I should stay off my feet until i'm 100% but I'm running out of time. ....I feel like I should just start running BUT i'm scared that if I do I will re-lapse and get worse and then I'd really be mad at myself...
Sunday, March 6, 2011
Friday, March 4, 2011
I started getting sicker and sicker yesterday and by 9pm last night was in bed sick as a dog. sore throat, swollen glands, body aches..you know the kind where it hurts to even move? yeah that. blah. I was in bed for 18hrs!!!!!!!!! and slept most of that. My friend took my girls today, what a blessing that was, so I could sleep ALL DAY. I am feeling about 25% better but I missed 4 miles yesterday, 10 miles today and am missing 14 miles tomorrow:(
that means my first base week of 50 miles is only 21:(
I am supposed to jump into 60 miles next week (i've never run more than 50 and only did that once). ...so now I don't know where this leaves me. I haven't talked to my coach but i'm worried this just throws everything off. I was supposed to have 2 weeks of easy base building runs then 8.5 weeks of hard training. he says an individual always PEAKS about 8-10wks into training so we had it laid out perfectly....now I'm not sure what will happen.
this just sucks. I suppose I can be thankful it happened now and not the week before my marathon but still.
feeling a bit discouraged. PRAYING I am 100% by monday. If not, I won't be running b/c I don't want to make it worse.
anyway...that's where i'm at. fingers crossed 2 more days of rest and i'm back on my feet!
Thursday, March 3, 2011
I woke up sicker than ever. Razor blades in my throat, coughing harder, runnier nose. ugh!.
It has gotten a little worse each day since I started running this week.
I tried to do my 8 miles and 3 miles in got a BAD side cramp...made it to mile 4 but was half hunched over. got off. SUCKY.
I have 10 miles tomorrow and gym, 14 miles saturday...
what would you do? take the day off tomorrow and rest? or keep going and risk getting worse and worse?
I am so torn on what to do.
Wednesday, March 2, 2011
Tuesday, March 1, 2011
alarm goes off at 6:20am...but dont' worry My 3yr old was on the case and made sure to come in at 6:18 robbing me of my last 2 minutes of sleep:):)
I got her situated on the couch with a banana and a cartoon so my hsuband could keep sleeping and off to the gym..I HATE treadmills and we are rarely allowed to run on them but it's POURING rain, COLD and I'm sick..so oh well.
Here is what my week looks like for first week of training:
Week 1 : 50 miles (base week)
Tuesday- 7 easy
wednesday - 10 easy (double) I will probably do 7 and 3 or 6 and 4.
Thursday- 8 easy
Friday - 10 easy + gym (bike, upper, core, stretching)
Saturday - 14 easy
So that's what I have to look forward to!! can't wait;)